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Summer's pretty much hott shit.
I realllllly need to hang out with some people though [IE-ROBYN/ASHLEY/MICHELLE/SARAH GILLLLY] =)
God damn the black night -
with all its foul temptations,
I've become what I always hated.
--That pretty much sums up a lot of things.
+ I've never been to good with secrets.
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[08 Mar 2005|06:11pm] |
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Day two of the worst week of my life. Holy God. LOL. It freeeekin sucks. I swear. I don't know how I even have anymore energy to write this. I feel like, collapsing. haha. oh wellll, at least theres 2 days down.. 3 more to go. I cant wait till friday. I'm so soreeee! Oh jeeze. Listen to me complaining. LOL. Oh welll.. I mean.. if you get through girls soccer conditioning, you can get through anything. Its seriously the hardest thing EVERRR!! Ahhh! ANYWAY... I have a chem test & geometry test tomorrow. If i study ... I'm sure to pass. If I don't I'll fail miseralbly so.. Guess what I'm going to do.. Oh yes. STUDY!!!!! haha. I better. If I dont I'm going to shoot myself in the face. Or something. (HA, nOt really.) But anyway... I really like someone... A LOT. If you're reading this.. you prob. know who. hahaha.<3 He just makes me happy. Just when I'm around him.. When I'm on the phone with him... Even if it's awkward silence. I just never want to leave. ... Wow. I said I wouldnt let this happen again. But, stupid me... I just can't help myself. ;] lol. Welll, I'm gonna go eat dinner, &&&&&&& thennn study for chem, & Geometryyyyy. whoooo. lol LATER.<3
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[05 Mar 2005|10:20am] |
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heyy .. well its the weekend, so of course things are better. =] i love my friendsss<3 last night i went to the movies w/ kerrey and jess. good timesss. =] we went to johnny rockets. haha. those people there are nuts. & our waiter was cute. ;] lol. we just talked and stufff, then we went over to cinemark and went to see hitch.. we saw ASHLEY&JOE!! aww i love those two. they;re awesomeee. =] thennn, we went into our movieee. anddd like 10 mins into it, JOE CALLED!!<3 aww =] umm yeahhh... i didnt even watch the movie, i just talked to him the wholllleeee timeeeee and i couldnt be happier. we talked a lot. hes a funny kid. =D i dont know. at least some things in my life arent retarted. & thats a good thing. i hate to say it, but i take too many things for granted. ahhh. WHATEVER!!!(lmao) life's weird though. i dont know. i dont get it. lol. i mean i guess not many people do.. but i really dont. its just, everythings soo confusing anymore.. anyone agree? i mean i wasnt like this last year. i dont know. well im going to go now, i dontknow what im doing tonight. maybe going to the mall. ;] haha. ummm. who knows. i'll update more laterrrr. <3
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[03 Mar 2005|10:08pm] |
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Hmmm. So OBVIOUSLY I havent update this in a while. A lot of stuff has happend. Boys have come and gone. Ahh. Whatever. My life is like, stupid. I dont care if you dont want to hear me complain, dont read any further, b/c thats all this is going to be. Me complaining about my stupid life. My daddys sick. =( Hes probably going to need an operation. It sucks. I just hate it. I swear I'll never smoke& drink, just b/c I see how much it can mess your body up. No my dads not an alcoholic. But after drinking & smoking since you were 12, it just doesnt do any good. ='( & I'm sooo confused about other things. I like someone that I prob. shouldnt. No one really knows who... Oh well. Schools been crappy. Thank God only like what? 2 1/2 months? I dont even know. I just want it to be over. But I'm prob. going to have to go to summer school anyway, b/c I'm stupid. =\ I just hate it. I wish I could be more like my brothers&my sister. Smart. Unselfish. All I care about is myself. And I dont even know why. I just suck at life. I care about stupid things, like what im going to do on the weekend, instead of what tests I have to take that week. Why don't I study when I know I NEED TO. I'm sooo lazy. & I always say I'm going to change, but i never do. I always end up doing the same stupid shit. AHHHH! I'm just sooooo sick of it already. I swear I need to delete AIM and Stupid MYSPACE. B/c that's my life. I just sit on my computer alll day. Like I'm doing now. And still I don't go do my h/w as I'm reading this. Maybe I will when I'm done writing this, but then again, I'll prob end up just sitting online. =\ Godddd.No. I'm going to do my h/w right now. Sorry if you actually read this. I'm sorry my life sucks and i have to complain about it.
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| Go Eagles? |
[29 Jan 2005|02:07pm] |
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hmmm.. yeah so yesterday was OKAY. School was GAY. It always is though anymore. Oh well. Best part of the day is lunch when I get to see Kerrey.. hahaha. Yeah. Wellll anyway. Camehome from school .. layed around.. Then at about 8 me and BRIANNA<333 went to the mall. We had a lot of fun for only being there an hour. hahaha. "I WANT GREEEEEN ONES!!!" <3 LMAO. It was funn. I got to see a hot someone. "Oh let's walk past again!!" hahaha. Yeah. Cute boys stareing at us<333 hahahaha. Visiting Kerrey.. Walking around with our water and ORANGE JUICE. lol. Wow. WElll soo anyway. We went to the movies after that...to the cinemark. We wnated to go see Hide and Seek but we werent allowed so we got tickets to The Phantom of the Opera. Then we snuck into Alone in the dark... Kerrey casually walks in.. I run in.. "BRIANNA BRIANNA!!!" LMAO wow.. we're sly ones.hahaha WEll we decided not event to stay for that one b/c we didnt even know what it was about .. so we went to see phantom anyway. lmao. It was good MINUS the singing. LOL so I guess it wasn;t that good. LOL. "GOD I CAN'T DEAL WITH THIS! HONESTLY!!" haha i love you bri<3. I love my friends. haha I honestly don't know what i would do if it wasnt for them. I think i wouldnt be able to be alive. lol. yeahhh..<3333333 thanks kidddos<3333333333. ummm Tonight i think this is the plan.. wrestling meet@ WVW. EXCITING. then we get Kerrey from work.. THEN we go to the GATEWAY to seeeeeeeeeeeeeee....HIDE AND SEEK!!. AHHHHHHH! I'm scared. lol. i'll prob like pee my pants orsomething. i hate scary movies. Everyone thinks its hilarious to watch me during them .. godd lol well anyway after that i think we're going to have a sleeeep over =O!! YIPPEE!! hahahaha<333333 However i think i will leave now this is getting too long lol. <333 I'll update later. =)
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| BORED. |
[23 Jan 2005|12:49pm] |
WEll it's too cold to go outside as of right now.. so here's a whole bunch of useless quizzes. WHOO.
| LORA |
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Luxurious |
| O |
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Optimistic |
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Refreshing |
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You Are 15 Years Old |
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Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.
13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.
20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.
30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!
40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.
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ohh look at that i act as old as i am. neat.
You are 60% Taurus
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You Are a Losing Lottery Ticket! |
Full of hope and promise.
But in the end, a cheap letdown.
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well that makes me feel nice... haha
okay thats all for now.. i'm sure there will be a lot more later. ha
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[19 Jan 2005|12:38pm] |
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soo i'm home early today for snowwww<333 haha. i love it. me kerrey and kevin and whoever else might go sleigh riding somewhere b/c we're just that hott. lol i love snow. it's the best thing everrrrr.. + midterms pused back!! how sweet is that? yeah .. so i dont know anymore i just dont know. i need to get over someone or something before i get really hurt. i dont know what my problem is. Sarah Arent said it best.. "My life's like a soap operah." haha i <3 youuu lol. yeah so i dont know what to do. im upset. and i just dont get life. its too crazy and complicated for me anymore. i just wish everything was simple like it use to be. oh well. life isnt always going to be easy. uggh. too bad it isnt. this really sucks. wellll i'm going to go to sleep or something. im soo tired. byeee<3333333333
Take the quiz: "What Kinda Kiss R U?"
Romantic Kiss
Lying in bed after making love and just doing whatever.
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| moreeeee hahaha |
[17 Jan 2005|11:03pm] |
You're a very bubbly, happy, caring person. You
love to be with your friends and you love
making them happy. Your always willing to bend
over backwards to help someone in need even if
you don,t know them. Plus you love making new
friends, which is why your always surrounded by
people. Remember though sometimes you need to
concentrate on your work, you tend to not pay
attention and can be rather spacey. Also
remember to do things for yourself sometimes
and don,t let people take advantage of your
giving nature. Also Please Send Pics!!!
Whats Your Personality(with PICS)
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You're "You're So Last Summer", you're
always hoping for the best, but in the end you
just get walked all over.
Which taking back sunday song are you?
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[17 Jan 2005|10:37pm] |
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wow. I dont even know where to start. hahaha.. i guess from Costanzapalooza2 will do..... okay. well at first it wasnt anything great, just hung around w/ Kerrey and Kevin. i <3 those two!! =] hahaha.. anyway. ummm a lot happend. I dont know if i want to really post it on here... i mean most everybody already knows. (; hahaha. <3333333 but if you want to know.. feel free to ask. haha ummm after it me kev and ker walked to kerreys. IT WAS SOOO FREEGIN COLD!!! my legs deffinately frozeeeee. it sucked. but when we got there.. we just stayed up ate talked and watched tv. PENIS. VAGINA. SEX. LMFAO!! hahahah that was one messed up show. lmao. wow. hahaha. omg and the voicemail we left someone. (; hahahaha we're retarted I SWEAR. lmao. oh well haha. well that was friday then saturday was rodanos... that was funn i guess. not as fun as CP2 but it was good. Hey THere Charlie<3. yes. yeah Rodanos. it was rodanos. im bored w/ updateing lol. Sunday went to the movies.. didnt stay for the movie. LOL. saw ANDY PECK!!!!!!!!!!!! he won a shirt. it was hott (; lol. and tonight i couldnt go to hawthorne height spitalfield etc. and im sooo upset. =( goddd. and we have a 2 hour delay tomorrow ANYWAY. okay now im going to post these.. haha i stole them all from CHRIS B!
the studious student. You are definitely pressured
and suffer from side effects from built up
stress. You are constantly occupying yourself
with books, studies, or some other hobby. You
feel squeezed in place and have litte movement.
Most of the time you are busy with work and
family, and would love to spread your wings and
relax. One like you needs to find a certain
time of the day to just sit and release the
tension. However, you are doing fairly well in
school, but that does not mean that you can
continue stressing yourself out. Take a
breather and head out with some friends.
You can consider going into a field like
librarian, polotician, journalist,
Archeologist, scientist, or lawyer. You have a
brain...NOW USE IT....but please...spare
yourself the pressure and create some down time
for yourself. Or develop a hobby that releases
tension, such as knitting (it worked wonders
for me)
What type of teenager are you?
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Your Heart is Green
What Color is Your Heart?
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[10 Jan 2005|03:52pm] |
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I realize I havent updated in a while, so while I'm sitting here, being bored, waiting to go to soccer, watching Opera,(Yes I know, HOTT)and sooo I decided to update. LOL... hmm so anyway. WOW, what can I say, school today was AWESOME!!! =D It was one of the best mondays, EVERRRR!!! Oh man..I just love my FRIENDSSS<33 and thats not alll, I talked to someone.. A LOT today. It was amazing. I can't wait until Fridayyy!!! COSTANZAPALOOZA 2 BITCHES!!! It should be one FUN, GREAT, AMAZING, AWESOME, [AND SOME OTHER FUN WORDS]TIME!! OMG I just CAN'T WAIT!! =D hehehe. Wow, so Anywayyy... Soccer conditioning today, should be just greatt. It's kindd of sad, I am actually excited to go.. haha. That won't last long. LOL..well umm I don't know what else to sayy. SO I guess I'll update after soccer.. we'll see how that goes. =]
ThErE aRe MomEntS wHeN, WhEn I knOw It &, thE wOrLd rEvoLveS aRoUnD US.. <3
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[05 Jan 2005|08:55am] |
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..hmmm well today we have no school. i wish it was snowing instead of doing, whatever it's doing outside. i love snowwwww and it should snow already. i'm glad we don't have school b/c i didnt do my book report for johnson. =\ oh well, i'll do it today. haha. umm last night i went to the basketball game w/ kerrey kevin sarah brianna and brittany. i sat by kevin and kerrey..b/c we're "SCENE" like that. ;) hahaha. i love those two.. it was a fun time. we sat w/ Amber & Murdock tooo.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMANDA!!! <3 youuu. we just talked about cool things, and how Kevin is god.(he can walk on walls..)lol. then we went to rodanos, and we ate frenchfries!! lmao, and drank Kevins soda (w/out him noticing) i pretty much didnt even feel like being there, so meand kerrey left at about 920. i got home... and went to sleep, and then woke up this morning, and started getting ready for school. then realized we didn't have it and called Kerrey to make sure. haha, and now im here, and i think i want to go back to sleep, so i'll update more laterr. <33 =)
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[02 Jan 2005|12:09am] |
i almost forgot...
"you look like **********."
"i am **********."
lmao...nuts.
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[01 Jan 2005|11:46pm] |
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movies tonight<333
being depressed ='(
darkness.. =-O
girl falling. =D..i felt bad =\
he's naked! =O
gay ending. =\
omg its a french fri!! =O
wendy's. dancing. bathroom. boy. =X
attempting to walk to subway. =D
getting scared of boys in cars. =O
walking into trucks. =X
emo fag.. =-O lmao.
talking to someone..=)
friends cheering me up. <3 =D
that was my night in a nut shell. i do love my friends..i do. =)
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[01 Jan 2005|02:55pm] |
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yeah..so it's 2005. who cares. not me. its just going to be another crap year. thats right. no one cares.
last night was fun....kerreys house<3 awesome times. =] <3 my AWESOME friends. thats about all that keeps me going these days, knowing i have friends who dont talk about me behind my back and who actually care. thanks kids<3
i feel pretty sick now. i think i might go shower. maybe later i'll get into detail.. goodbye
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[29 Dec 2004|12:06am] |
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ahhh ..wow where to start? tonight. jeeze. it was good and bad. mostly bad..or good? well i started off the night w/ a basketball game. it was good i went w/ kevin and sarah. (tj took us (; lol) we sat by brad and marc, and later brianna came!! well then after the basketball game we attempted to go to rodanos, but it was closed. then for some reason we all stood outside rodanos, all of us being like, ummmmm, me, kerrey [met her on the way to rodanos] sarah, brianna, kevin, brad, sean, cass ford, jilll, uhhh chris hall, joe kushner, wendy, katie, rachel rush, umm and some other people i guess. okay..so we decided to walk to gondas/metro/mcdonalds. i dont know which.. we just started to walk lol anyway....me, kerrey, sean, sarah, rachel, cookie, kevin, and brianna started walking to mcdonalds, then at about coughlin, sean decided he should go back to rodanos. welll, me and kerrey being the nice girls we are =) decided to walk w/ him, b/c well... its sean and we couldnt see him walking back by himself. yeah so on the way back we encountered mr gillis. lol. we kind of just avoided him and went on our merry way. the walk over was interesting. we just chatted about things and how cold it was outside. then we got back to gondas and katie j , wendy, chris , and joe were still there. me and kerrey sat and watched them play foosball. and this creepy old man looking like a bum came out of the bar, went to the bathroom, and after that, he decided he'd stare at me and kerrey. WEIRD. lol me and ker were like...okay? haha okay....so then Sean, Chris, and Joe left..[[i got a hug..what? lol, sorry i just had to throw that it. ;)]], and shortly after me and kerrey started our voyage to sarahs. hmm this is where the shit hits. okay. so sarah was already a little upset ..for reason i willnot discuss in here, but anyway lets say i just made it worse for her. and i'm sooo sorry sarah. i love you!!! and i;m just sorryyyy<3333 i hope things are better now.. god. i feel like such a bitch. for real. =( i'm soo sorry. it will never happen again. and then after sarahs, me bri and kerrey left and went home, i took them to laflin then came home and helped my sister w/ a puzzle, got bored, and came on line and stuff. that was the extent of it.
you
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you
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around..<3
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[27 Dec 2004|03:25pm] |
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another christmas has come and gone, i got some neat stuff. clothes, a scarf, boots. lmao wow. i pretty much got everything i asked for. ummmm it wasnt the same w/ steve gone, but he called and i got to talk to him so thats good. he'll be home either late january, or early february, i cant wait. but then ed will be gone anyway. jeeze. i just cant win. i guess its about time he got to do something he really wanted to do. and i guess i'm happy for him. but i'll miss him all the same. anyway... last night was sunday night. me brianna sarah and kerrey went to see lemony snickets whatever whatver, it was okay... sarah didnt like it really, uhhh, it would have been better if i was like 10, but it was still good i guess. i'd go see it again maybe. lol. umm, after the movies we all ended up at sarahs like every other time we decide to go out, wow i <3 them all haha. we watched nepoleon, the best part is kip singing at the end.. haha i love it. its amazing. me and kerrey lost it lmao. its a pretty pointless and stupid movie, but hey, i guess thats what makes if funny. umm, then i swept off the steps for Tj , lol and brianna told him. lmao. oh well , i was just trying to be nice. haha. fun night. i dont know what i'm doing tonight, maybe going to see another movie, lol. THURSDAYS CHASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =D i'm soo excited! lol. it should be a fun time..but i hope certain people that make it not fun dont go. =\ lets just say i hope not a lot of people go lol. welll, im bored and this seems long enough so i'm gonna hit the road.
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[22 Dec 2004|10:24pm] |
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well since i'm just sitting here doing absolutely nothing in particular, i suppose i will update since i havent in about a week or so. umm. complaints. i hate school already. thank god tomorrow's the last day i have to go, and then christmas vaca. that makes me oh so happy. i've been all ...sad lately. i guess it's the holidays and stuff. it sucks, but i guess theres really nothing i can do about it except keep holding on. i dont know what happend to me. i use to be so happy and everything. i use to hand all my stuff in on time. i use to care what people who cared about me thought. i dont know. i hope this is just a phase because i cant deal with this. i'm so emotionally unstable anymore its sick. i get depressed over the stupidest things. i'm just lucky i have a few good friends out there who know how to keep me in line. you know who you are...and thank you soo much.<3 other then being in a...i dont know what mood, christmas is soon!! i cant wait...i thought i didnt care, but i actually do. its not going to be the same and stuff, it will probably be a pretty sad christmas actually w/ Steve gone, and Ed getting ready to leave... i dont know. i'll just try to make the best of the situation. i could have it worse, and thats what i just keep telling myself. i'm going to make a bunch of new years resolutions, and for once im going to try my hardest to keep them. one on top would be doing a hell of a lot better in school, and actually trying. i dont try. i need to try. i'm not the girl who looks at a thing once and gets it. i have to work at that...i know it, and that's what im going to do. i'm not going to settle for mediocracy. i will push myself. i'm not going to dwell on things like relationships and boys, no matter how much i think it hurts now, its not going to matter when its all said and done. boys arent everything. no matter heart sick for one i think i am,im not going to let it get to me. i'm done with stuff like that for a while. it just adds to the list of let downs. anyway... i think thats about it for now..this entry is quite full of complaints. haha. <3
And I've finally found that life goes on without you,
and my world s t i l l turns when you're not around..
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